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With that being said, please know that a rant is coming tomorrow.
You have been warned.
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. . . . to buckle up!
March was so phenomenal that I’m still working on my March reflection post. In the meantime, stay tuned for a jam-packed month of blog posts filled with all things diversity, positivity, and empowerment.
Several guest posters have reached out to me, along with some lovely Swirl couples who are willing to share their stories of life and love with us.
One of our readers is going to give us a blow-by-blow account of a “first” Swirl date (hilarious!).
I also have a very special announcement coming up at the end of the month. You don’t want to miss out, so if you haven’t already subscribed, I invite you to do it now.
Let’s ease on down the road! Woot Woot!
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Seth kisses his bride Gene-Leigh
Those of us who are in the Swirling lifestyle know that there always someone ready to rain on your interracial parade. When I interviewed Gene-Leigh, I asked her: Did you two have any issues regarding your relationship, either from you, your families, or outsiders?
Here, Gene-Leigh candidly shares a few of her and Seth’s experiences.
Seth’s Eye-Opening Experience
Seth recently went through an episode at work where during the course of a conversation with another worker, the person made a racially disparaging remark. When he came home that night, I could tell that something was weighing heavy on him. He told me the story, and I sat quietly and listened attentively to him. As a Black person, what he told me didn’t surprise me at all. But he was shaken completely to his core because the person who made the remarks was someone he KNEW–and he had no idea the person felt that way about Black people.
The one thing he weighed on him the most was that he was too shocked to respond: “In that second, I felt like I wasn’t defending us. I felt like I was letting us down. I was shocked into silence.”
Gene-Leigh’s Response
I comforted him, and assured him that I was just glad he didn’t give the guy a taste of his fist. My Seth is a gentle giant—-he’s built like a linebacker, and can hoist me around the house on a good day. I didn’t want him to get written up at the job.
I didn’t think Seth was letting us down by not responding–how do you respond to something like that when you’ve never had to DEAL with something like that? Understand this, readers: Swirling can be tough not only on Black women, but also on our mates. They are possibly exposing themselves to situations they have never experienced before as non-Black men. Seth was shocked into SILENCE (which is saying a LOT—he’s an ex-punk rocker after all, NOTHING shocks those guys).
Seth looked at me and said: “I didn’t know people were still that way. I didn’t know people thought like that.” I told him that there will ALWAYS be people who think and act that way, because there always have been—-I’ve been through it my entire life. I think after that incident he saw me and my life experiences with new eyes.
Seth’s Facebook Encounter
A few weeks later, Seth got into a small disagreement with someone he was Facebook friends with because the woman and her husband dressed their (white) son up in Blackface and a dread-locked wig to resemble his favorite baseball player at Halloween. Of all of the comments, Seth was the only person who questioned if the costume wasn’t offensive to some degree. The guy blew up, and defended his decision, saying “My kid really idolizes this guy and the player had no problem with it,” which we both knew was a lie.
All Seth could do was stare open-mouthed at the screen. He turned to me and said: “How can he think that’s okay? Is he nuts?” I smiled, kissed him and gave him a hug. What else could I do? Sure it was wrong (I mean he MIGHT have slid by with dressing the kid in only the wig–but BLACKFACE?). I know people can’t always understand what they don’t live. Seth has learned that challenging someone’s belief systems surrounding race can be dangerous.
Haterade from Black Men . . . .
One time when we were in the grocery store once I got hit on by this guy in the jelly aisle (seriously???). Seth was further down the aisle picking up bread. It’s amazing (but not surprising) to me the assumptions people have about others, because the whole time this guy was hitting on me (as I did my best to ignore him) he had no clue my husband was a few feet from me (Seth knew full well what was going on, we’d played this game with people before, and if I was in ANY trouble he would have come to my rescue–but I’m a pretty tough chick).
It wasn’t until I said: “Baby, do you want grape or strawberry?” and Seth answered with “Peach” did the guy get the clue. I gave the guy the sweetest smile, and held up my left hand with my diamond-encrusted wedding ring before saying, “Sorry.” And what did I get? A look of the utmost contempt from the guy before he stormed off.
. . . and from Black Women
We’ve also gotten nasty little barbs of insults from Black women who feel that our relationship is less than valid because we happen to be different races. One girl pointed at us in Sam’s Club and said, “There’s yet ANOTHER one,” before rolling her eyes in disgust (personally I was more disgusted that her ‘man’ couldn’t seem to keep his pants up and I had to catch a glimpse of his Spongebob boxers–but I digress). o_O
Why Gene-Leigh and Seth Shake the Haters
My husband is an awesome man. I’m not just saying that because he’s my husband, I’m saying that because it is the unmitigated truth. Why? Well, primarily because he puts up with me and my various eccentricities without so much as batting an eyelash (“Okay, Gene, okay, I’ll take the laundry down and kill the spider . . . .). He goes out of his way to make me feel completely and totally beautiful, special, and worth it (he once drove out of his way in an ice storm to bring me roses). He’s brought a measure of joy to my life that I never thought possible, and while we can both annoy the hell out of each other (“Dammit Seth I just cleaned the kitchen and NOW you want to eat!”) I can’t see spending my life with another person.
So why, pray tell if we are so happy and so loving and caring are there people who want to destroy that based on something as superficial as race? Why should my happiness be tamped down, questioned, and doubted because my husband isn’t the same color that I am? I wish I knew the answers to my questions, but as Bob Dylan sang, “The answer my friends, is blowin’ in the wind.” We’ve had our share of doubters—-a few family members, one friend, and other complete strangers we don’t know—-but it hasn’t shaken how much we love each other. As a matter of fact, it brings us closer together.
Join in the Fray: Has the Swirling road been tough for you? In what ways?
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Seth captures a New Year’s Eve kiss from Gene-Leigh
Yesterday Seth, our County Boy, and Gene-Leigh, our Black City Girl Swirl couple was facing an awful dilemma: A BAT was flying around in their home!
Let’s see how the County White boy handled up . . . . .
The Bat Chronicles – Part 2
Gene-Leigh continues,
At this point, my mind had slowly begun to unravel, and the descent into insanity had begun.
“OH GOD WHY???? WHAT THE HELL?” I grabbed my cell phone, and re-dialed the number to Animal Control. Since it was after hours, I got an answering service.
“Hello? This is Sharon. How may I help you?” She sounded so sweet and nice. But I knew even before I asked my question what the answer would be.
I swallowed. “Hi, I need to speak to someone from Animal Control,” I said twisting the cord of my phone charger around my fingers.
“I’m sorry, Animal Control is gone for the evening,” Sharon said in her sickeningly sweet tone.
I closed my eyes in defeat before whimpering thank you, and hung up the phone. I began to weep openly. Seth sighed, and rubbed my shoulders. “Don’t panic, okay? Honey, it can’t stay in the house overnight, we have to get it out of here. You gotta help me.”
By now, I was beyond the point of no return. I was sleep-deprived, and panic-stricken. The last thing I wanted to hear Seth say was that I had to help him face the beast.
“It’s gonna EAT me!” I wailed before descending into tears again.
Seth rolled his eyes. “Gene, it’s the size of a mouse with wings.”
I hiccupped and coughed with tears oozing out of my eyes, “It can . . . FLY!!”
After Seth successfully calmed me down (with lots of forehead kisses), I slipped on a sweater and jeans, and tied a scarf around my hair. Seth donned his cold weather gang member attire from the night before. I’d cried so hard, my nerves were raw. My voice was ragged.
Seth addressed me like a General taking his troops into battle. “Okay, we’re going to go downstairs, that’s where it has to be since the doors up here are closed, and we’ll go from there.” My only reply was a pitiful wail.
Seth breathed out, exasperated. “And will you knock off the crying please? They travel by sound; you’re going to drive it right to us with that crying.”
After yelping once, I nodded in silent understanding, and obediently followed him to the second floor. Seth quickly swept the room with his flashlight. Not meeting up with Fangy, we slowly crept down to the first floor, where Seth stopped at the bottom of the stairs, and I froze behind him on the landing. I heard a thud.
Urgently, but calmly, Seth beckoned to me. “Gene! Gene, bring me my keys. It’s in the kitchen. I have to get this door down here open.”
That was all I needed. I screamed bloody murder.
“STOP SCREAMING AND GET MY DAMN KEYS!” Seth shouted up the stairs to me.
Panic-stricken, and inconsolable, I grabbed his keys and tossed them down the stairs where they landed with a thud before I ran back up to the second floor. Seth called out to me.
“No, Gene get back on the steps! You have to keep it from going upstairs!”
I made my way to the first floor landing, holding a sheet in front of me. I tried to keep my composure, but just then, Fangy made his appearance and swept toward Seth before angling sharply upward and soaring into the living room. I gave a scream that would have made Chaka Kahn proud while jumping up and down on the landing like an over-caffeinated toddler.
By this point, Seth was tired, and had had enough of my screaming. “Gene,” he said calmly, while wiping sweat off of his face, “Get your ass outside and see if you can make ENOUGH noise to draw it out of the house!”
I ran down the steps, out of our back door, through the causeway between our house and our neighbor’s, and up the three steps to our front door. I grabbed a broom, and begin to bang the open door with it in an effort to drive the bat-bastard out of the house.
Now let’s stop here. At 2:00 a.m., here were two grown adults, dressed like they are ready for a Nor’easter (it was the middle of the summer), banging on doors and screaming. Is it any wonder people think we’re odd?
Seth watched me for a full minute, amused at my efforts. “Yeah, no. He doesn’t seem to care. Get back in here Tito Puente.”
I ran around the back, through the kitchen, and stood next to Seth who was posing with a broom in his hand. I stared at him in awe, thinking of how much he resembled a golfing trophy. I then realized that I was in the same room as the monster, and my eyes began dart wildly around, searching for our arch nemesis. Seth’s voice made me jump.
“Do you see him,” he asked me in a near whisper.
I stared crazily around the room waiting for the bat to come swooping down on us. “No . . . .”
Seth pointed with his chin. “He’s right there, on the door jamb. . . .”
I followed his eyes, and spied a small bat hanging upside down on the top left side of our doorway. He appeared to be confused—Well if he moves two inches to the left, he’s free. The door is open dude, just fly through it, I thought to myself. Then I started to wonder if the bat was silently laughing at our appearances—wide-eyed, exhausted, and dressed like cold climate Crips. The first few lines of Poe’s “The Raven” crept into my head . . . . ’As I pondered weak and weary . . . . ’ As if on cue, the bat twitched his left wing ever so slightly . . . .
I grabbed Seth’s arm digging my fingernails into his bicep so hard, they bit through the winter coat, and in a hoarse whisper, chanted to him. “Oh God Seth, oh God….he’s going to fly . . . . Oh my God . . . . Oh my AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!” For the second time that night, Chaka would have been singing my praises as I reacted to the bat swooping down off the door toward us.
Seth swung the broom and missed. “GET THE SHEET!” he yelled to me while taking shots with his improvised Louisville Slugger.
I ducked, screamed, and swung the sheet wildly toward the bat, but missed it by a fraction of an inch.
“Almost!” Seth shouted before taking another swing with the broom.
I screamed again as the bat swooped toward us, and swung the sheet. I caught our coat tree instead and brought it crashing to the ground.
“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” I screamed while flailing around madly. The bat swooped again over our heads as I swung the sheet, hopped, and did a fairly accurate pirouette that would have made Bob Fosse proud.
“Gene, COOL IT,” Seth hollered, noting that I was very close to completely losing my sanity with no hope of ever regaining it.
I ran to the first floor landing, and watched the bat swoop around the living room. It was an eerie sight—it made no noise. I watched in horror from the landing as it swooped around from the living room to the kitchen. Seth crept out the front door, and stood on the steps.
Speaking slowly, as if he was trying to explain the concept of astrophysics to a second grader, Seth explained to me, “ I’m going to bang on the door, and try to coax it out. DON’T. SCREAM.”
I covered my mouth, and watched as the bat swooped toward the door, then away, toward the door, and away again, for five minutes. Those five minutes seemed like an eternity! Then, miraculously, drawn by Seth’s noise, the bat flew right out the open front door! Seth gave the broom one final swing, came into the house, and shut and locked the door, looking at me and smiling triumphantly.
“That bastard is GONE.”
Still holding the sheet, I could think of only one thing to say.
“I think I’m gonna faint,” I said before collapsing on our steps.
Seth shook his head, and lifted me easily in his arms. “Let’s get you to bed,” he said chuckling.
Seth, a MRI technologist, and Gene-Leigh, a family therapist, live in Pittsburgh, Pa. The couple describes themselves as “two of the most down-to-earth folks you will ever meet although we are both a bit nutty.”
Stay tuned for more adventures from this lovely Swirl Couple!
Join in the Fray: Are you afraid of birds and wings and bats and things?
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Copyright © 2013 Michelle Matthews Calloway, ASwirlGirl, All rights reserved.
Yesterday we started a series on Swirl Couple Gene-Leigh and Seth Wheeler.
Here’s a bio on the couple: My full name is Gene-Leigh (named for my grandparents and Vivian Leigh the actress) Ziegler (nee Wheeler) and I was born, raised, and currently reside in Pittsburgh, Pa. I’m 32 and ¾ (33 is KILLING me) and Seth and I have been married since 10/11/12. I work as a family therapist for a not-for-profit agency in Pittsburgh, PA. I have a Master’s degree in counseling Psychology, and I have been in my field for almost 10 years.
Seth Ziegler (my loving husband) is 31 years old (he calls me a cougar, the louse), and works as an MRI technologist for a hospital in Pittsburgh. He’s attending school now for a degree in Hospital Administration, and has worked in his field for about 8 years. He is originally from a little town 2 hours north of Pittsburgh where his Mother’s family still lives.
We love long walks on the beach, candle lit dinners, and romantic getaways. However, since we are both too lazy and too broke to do any of those things, we settle for strolls to the corner, loud dinners in bars with lots of football, and putting our phones on silent every Sunday while we eat fast food in bed together. We’re probably two of the most down-to-earth folks you will ever meet although we are both a bit nutty. We got to live music shows as much as possible, and love every second of it. Thank you for allowing us to share our insanity with you.
The Back Story on the Bat
Seth is a long-suffering man. His wife is a punk. Yeah, you read that right, I’m a punk—particularly when it comes to anything that slithers, crawls, flies, has more than four legs, or lives in the dark corners of our unfinished hundred-year old basement. As a requisite “city kid,” my knowledge on any and all things wildlife is shoddy at best. I was never a Girl Scout, and I didn’t go on nature walks (unless you count trudging through alleyways with overgrown weeds popping up through the cracks in the street a “nature walk”).
My experience with animals was limited to alley cats, and those mean neighborhood dogs you were explicitly told to stay away from. On the other hand, my husband grew up outside of city limits in the country, had friends who rode ATVs in the woods, hunted, fished, and ran through all manner of empty fields on acres of farmland. He learned to make his jacket into a flotation device when he was a Cub Scout (don’t ask). So you can see and understand how different the dynamic is, right? Okay.
Fast forward to July of last year . . . .
We had decided to move into a house and out of our tiny cramped apartment last summer. We’d grown out of it, and, as we were going to be married in October, knew that having children was inevitable (Seth’s mother would have preferred to have grandchildren earlier than that, but I digress). We found a beautiful brownstone house in Pittsburgh’s Manchester neighborhood, and I fell in love with it the first time I saw it. We paid our security deposit, and moved into our new home excitedly.
Here’s where it gets interesting. See, things are never as they seem, and that is exactly what we got with this house. We had a few issues here and there, but the biggest issue came in the form of a 6-inch tall furry creature with leathery wings that decided to pay us a visit about two weeks after we moved in. I wrote the short story below to illustrate how differently the two of us—-the White country boy, and the Black city girl—-handled the same situation.
The Bat Chronicles – Part 1
I’d gone to bed earlier than usual, because I had an early morning appointment with a client, and as I am almost always running late, I wanted to get a fresh start. I was sleeping soundly, but rolled over when I heard our bedroom door creak open. Seth was standing in the doorway, and I gave him a sleepy smile.
“Hello my lovely man. Did you come to see me?” I yawned.
Seth shifted from one foot to the other, and peered at me. “Hi honey, um, we have a bat in the house . . . .”
I sat bolt upright with all romantic pretense gone. “We have WHAT in the house??”
Seth scratched the top of his head and peered at me with big hazel-brown eyes. “A bat . . . .”
I closed my eyes and prayed he meant an implement used to play baseball or cricket. “Tell me you aren’t serious . . . HOW THE HELL DID A BAT GET IN???!!!”
Seth opened and closed his mouth a few times, trying to form words that wouldn’t send me further over the edge. “I don’t know it was going nuts flying around downstairs . . . .”
Wrong thing to say, Bro. “Where is it?” I asked him, terrified.
Seth pointed toward the door, “Last I saw, it was on the second floor . . . .”
I went into full stroke mode, and fairly screamed at him, “LAST TIME YOU SAW IT???” I started to hyperventilate, and broke out in a cold sweat. To his credit, Seth kept calm, and did his best to keep me from leaping out our third story window in panic.
“It’s okay, calm down, let me go look,” Seth said stroking my hair. He left the bedroom closing the door behind him. When he returned in 10 minutes, I was hiding behind the door in my nightshirt.
Seth kissed my forehead (a little trick he uses to keep me calm when he’s about to give me news that could potentially give me a heart attack) and looked at me steadily. “Okay it’s across the hall in the computer room . . . .”
Eerily calm, I said to him, “I’m gonna faint….” and sure enough, I stumbled into the door, right before he grabbed me by the arms and held me up.
“Gene, stand up! It’s okay—God your eyes are HUGE!”
I swung my gaze to him. “A bat . . . .” I said before resting my head on his shoulder. He patted my head gently and said, “It’s okay, just give me moral support.” I groaned.
By about 2:00 am, Seth had developed a plan of action that consisted of an oversized winter coat, a pair of leather gloves, long pants, shoes, and a bright red bandana that when tied across his face, made him look like gang member. He glanced at me sitting cross-legged on our bed.
“How do I look?” he asked, his voice muffled by the bandana.
“Like you’re about to commit a drive-by in the Alaskan tundra,” I replied drily.
Seth squinted at me in fake malice. “Quiet you. Okay, I’m gonna go and see where it is. I think it’s in the computer room.”
I sighed and shrugged my shoulders. “Okay. I’m of no help. You know how I am about spiders, so I’m no good with bats. I’m a city kid, dammit!”
Pulling the cinches tight on the sleeves of his coat, Seth nodded, “It’s okay baby, just stay here.” He left the room to confront our fanged roommate, and returned a scant 15 minutes later and pulled the bandana off his face.
“Okay, so I saw it fluttering by the window, and I’m pretty sure it flew out. It was under the curtain,” Seth said, sinking into the bed next to me.
I looked at him in confusion. Sure, I was a bit crazy and sleep-deprived, but I knew for certain that was impossible. “That window has a screen. How did it get in if we have a screen?”
Seth shrugged. “It’s the only way it could have gotten in. There is no other way into the house; every other window was shut to keep the air conditioning in. And the screen doesn’t reach the top. It probably slipped between the panes of glass or something,” he said, yawning and removing his coat.
I frowned, but I was tired, and needed to be up in a few hours. “Okay well, at least it’s gone. I gotta get some sleep.” He kissed me good night and I lay down on the pillows, and was thrust into dreams of Count Chocula and the Count on Sesame Street.
The afternoon after our encounter with Dracula, I was still hesitant about being home alone after work, so I put in a call to Animal Control. Although I trusted Seth, and believed that our fanged nemesis had vacated and left no forwarding address, I just couldn’t shake that spooky feeling. I was told that Animal Control would be a few hours, so I vegged out on our front steps and read, and then listened to music on the first floor of the house. When Animal Control arrived—which consisted of two pot-bellied middle aged men with cloth gloves—I felt a bit more relieved. They searched around the house, and came back with their findings.
“Well Miss, we don’t see any evidence of activity. You sure your husband saw him leave?” the first man asked with uncertainty.
I shrugged. “Well, he told me he THOUGHT it was fluttering and flew out the window. I know that the top of that window slides down and there is no screen in the top, so maybe it came in the top and not the bottom,” I explained.
The second man nodded with certainty. “Yeah Hon, I think he’s gone. We get off at 11, so if your husband comes home, tell him to get a broom if he sees the bat again and try to corral it toward an open door. They don’t like light, so cut on all the lights except for the one in the room they are in. Check for him again around 8:30 or 9:00, when it’s dark out. But honestly, I think he scared him off.”
I tugged my hair nervously. “Okay, will do. Thanks for coming out.”
After I shut the door behind them, I tried to take the advice of the Queen of England—-keep calm, and carry on—-but to no avail. I sent Seth a text telling him the information I was told, and hunkered down on the first floor to wait for him to come home.
Seth got home a little after 10:00 pm, and checked the house again. He didn’t a find single thing. It seemed that we did get lucky—Dracula had made his escape. We settled down into our nightly routine of dinner and conversation before retiring to our third floor bedroom.
I yawned deeply while trudging up the steps. “I’m tired. I didn’t sleep well because I was so worried about that bastard of a bat last night,” I said. I walked into the bedroom, and began to strip off my clothing.
Seth nodded in agreement. “I know Honey; it’s late, try to get some sleep. It’s already 1:00 am now. I’m going to get a glass of water.”
As he left the bedroom, I crawled between the covers, rolled over and closed my eyes. Just then I heard what can only be described as a cross between a cough, and a horrified yelp, just before our bedroom door slammed. I rolled over and popped up out of bed ready to cuss Seth a blue streak.
“WHAT THE HELL IS—“I stopped short when Seth turned toward me with his eyes as huge as saucers.
“I guess our friend didn’t leave last night,” Seth said quietly.
My mouth dropped open in horror. “Oh my goodness please tell me you are lying right now . . . !”
Seth shook his head. “I wish I was. I just saw it flying up the steps toward us.”
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Stay tuned for Part 2 of The Bat Chronicles featuring Gene-Leigh and Seth Wheeler!
Join in the Fray: Are you a “Country Mouse” or a “City Mouse?”
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Gene-Leigh and Seth Wheeler
Here on the blog and over at The Swirl World on Facebook, I often receive questions in my in-box from women interested in knowing more about how to date and relate to Rainbeau men. (Shout out to blog mistress Christelyn Karazin of Beyond Black & White for the term “Rainbeau,” which, for Black women, is a term used to describe non-Black men).
Sometimes, the best way to answer certain questions is to hear how it’s done from the people who are successfully doing what you’re interested in. This week we’re featuring Swirl couple Gene-Leigh and Seth Wheeler.
To learn more about how they dated, related, and ultimately married, read on – and stay tuned!
NOTE: Installments are in Gene-Leigh’s own words.
Installment One – Gene-Leigh Tells How They Met
“Hmm….I don’t know,” I thought out loud to myself. I was searching the database of a website called PlentyofFish, and I wasn’t too keen on the results.
“Oh well, they’ll just have to come to me,” I sighed, and started to press enter. I stopped myself, and added to the bottom of my profile, in all caps, “RACE IS NOT A FACTOR”, and pressed enter.
I sat back, cross-legged on my pull out bed, and stared at my new dating profile. I’d been back in my hometown of Pittsburgh for a little over a year, and after leaving the Windy City (and a destructive relationship) in the dust, I was looking to start anew. I was in graduate school, worked at night processing checks at a bank, and was about 2 weeks away from moving into my own apartment. For the next few weeks, I fielded a few messages, made a couple of connections, and vetted a few losers (a poster who said “Baby, you’re hot. I’ve always wanted a sexy black woman to fulfill my fantasies!”–was QUICKLY deleted and blocked). I’d moved into my own place, and been there for a week, by the time I got a message from a strikingly handsome man with clear blue eyes. We exchanged emails a few times, and I liked him. He was down-to-earth, intelligent, and very handsome. I began to feel the little eddies of excitement that comes with a new beginning.
What Happens when You’re Patient – and have an Open Mind
And then—NOTHING. I checked my profile for a week, and got nothing at all from him. I wondered if I’d scared him off. Discouraged that I’d wasted my time, I was ready to delete my profile and settle for a lonely life filled with coursework and stress. I checked my profile one last time, and noticed a message. I clicked on it, and enlarged the picture of the guy who sent it.
I squinted at the picture, trying to make sense of it, and then remembered skipping over his profile because of my own preconceived notions of what I THOUGHT he was looking for. That and I noticed that a little blonde girl was also in the picture with him. “Looks like a rocker,” I thought to myself. His arms were covered in tattoos, and he sat on a chair with his pant legs rolled up, and his bare feet in a kiddie pool. The little blonde girl, who I assumed was his daughter sat next to him in the pool in a bathing suit smiling.
“What a weird pic to put on a dating website!” I thought smiling. One of my rules of dating is that I don’t date men with children–and that is my OWN preference. I know that there are men in the world who are fathers and make awesome mates for women, but I was looking for someone who didn’t already have a lifelong commitment.
“He’s kind of cute in a rocker way…” I thought. I’d never dated a white man before—-as a matter of fact, I’d gone through a period in my very early 20s where I was staunchly opposed to it. Too many bad experiences and a nasty stint at a fast food restaurant with customers spouting racist slurs had soured me against “pale folks.” It took going back to college and expanding my mind, and accepting people for who they were for me to make that change.
The Email Exchanges
“Ah, what the hell,” I thought. I clicked reply and sent him a message back. I allowed my mind to drift to the possibility of dating outside of my race. What would my family say? What about HIS family? What would society think? As I drifted off to sleep that night, those questions danced at the front of my mind. The next day, I received a message and a little more info on my rocker dude. His name was Seth, he was 28, and lived about 5 miles from me. He enjoyed listening to (and attempting to play) music, and worked the night shift, like I did. He thought my picture was pretty. I smiled as I read his reply. I dashed off an email, got ready for class, and found myself thinking of him during lecture.
We emailed each other for about two weeks, and in that time, I learned a lot about my “rocker dude”—- he’d gotten out of a short fling a few months before, and the little girl in the picture was actually his god-daughter. His best friend’s wife (whose daughter it was) took the picture of him sitting on the edge of the pool after she’d set up his account. I wrote back to him about my life, what I was doing, where I was going, and where I had been. We typed about music, movies, and bad restaurants. We talked about family, and I learned that his parents were very liberal folks who lived in a small town about two hours north of Pittsburgh. We typed about our brothers–we were both the oldest—-and about how his middle name (Andrew) was my brother’s first name. Now this entire time, I’d been sending messages through my email over my cell phone. Growing tired of typing, we finally worked up enough courage to exchange phone numbers, and talk on the phone.
First Phone Call . . .
I remember being so nervous the first night he called! “Oh my God I’ve never talked to a white guy, what do I say? How will he sound?” When Seth finally called, he was as nervous as I was, but the conversation just flowed like we’d known each other our entire lives. We talked about the stars, and food, and the sucky dating scene. He told me that he was glad I was talking to him because it killed him when beautiful women would end their profile descriptions with, “NO white men please.” That gave me pause. I was at a loss for words. I finally put some smile in my voice and told him, “Well, they missed a good one,” and we laughed.
. . . and First Date
As time went on we got closer, and we started to go out. Our first date was late at night, and we ate at an all-night restaurant after we were both off of work (remember, we both worked the night shift). I had a chicken salad, he had pancakes. He paid, and he wore a black T-Shirt with the Ramones on it and a pair of jeans (he still has that shirt, and since we’ve been married, I’ve been known to sleep in it from time to time). As time went on we got closer, met each other’s families, and got to know each other more and more. When he asked me to be his girlfriend, we were watching TV, and he turned to me and very thoughtfully said, “Hey, will you be my girlfriend?” I said “Yes” without thinking—-it was the most natural thing in the world. We had tiffs and arguments, and great make up sessions. He bought me an acoustic guitar (which is prominently displayed in our living room even today) and we made music together. He made me dinner, and gave me a stack of punk rock CDs. We went to punk rock concerts (which are a ball) and cooked Thanksgiving dinner for our parents. He soon proposed, and we got married on October 11, 2012.
Has this been a whirlwind? Absolutely. Has it been hard at times? Of course. But when it all comes down to it, we love each other deeply and dearly. I can’t see spending my life with anyone else–I need him like I need oxygen, and I know he needs me just the same. Just think: If I’d held on to my old feelings and beliefs, I would have missed out on the love of a lifetime. He’s my rock, and my “rocker dude”. I love you Seth (kiss). <3
Tomorrow: The Bat Chronicles (Part 1)
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I’m not here today because I’m hanging out at my friend LorMarie’s Place!
LorMarie describes herself as “a 30-something female who has an opinion on just about everything. Whether it’s using humor, ranting and raving, or writing positive affirmations, I do it all.”
I love LorMarie’s blog and I happily list her in my blog roll. I’ll be submitting posts to her from time to time.
She has one from me up today: Should Men Dictate Sex?
I’d love it if you’d come over and hang out with us!
P.S. Starting tomorrow, we’ll be featuring guest posts from one of the members of The Swirl World’s Facebook community. Our guest poster is happily and interracially married, and she’ll be sharing stories about how she met and married the man of her dreams. Stay tuned!
Join in the Fray: Would you like to submit a guest post?
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I believe that statement . . . do you?
Today in Southwest Louisiana we are treated to clear skies and a delightful 74 degree temperature. I’d like nothing better than to be sitting outside sipping a white chocolate mocha at Starbucks. Instead, I’m cooped up inside, trying to stay on task so that I can get some work done on my dissertation.
Earning a PhD is but one of my many dreams, and this one is well within my grasp. Two – three more months of hard work, and I’m there. Then, it will be on to the next milestone in fulfillment of another dream.
What are you dreaming about today? What will it take for you to live your best life? I believe the best way to make that dream a reality is to pursue it.
Now, of course I’m not talking about engaging in any activities that undermine your values or cause you to compromise your sense of personhood. That kind of behavior only leaves you open for exploitation, abuse, and disappointment.
Set Your Vision
Visualize what you want to attain, and see yourself achieving it. Visualizing “Michelle Matthews-Calloway, PhD” goes a long way towards helping me to press forward. I imagine the sense of accomplishment and gratification I’ll feel when I cross the stage and go through the hooding ceremony.
If a mate is what you’re dreaming of, picture yourself walking down the aisle (or picture your bride walking toward you). See yourself in the corner office, directing a division within your company of choice. If you’re dreaming of retirement, visualize yourself on the beach or relaxing at the pool, cold drink in hand.
Do What it Takes
Just as we have to “put legs on our prayers,” we also have to put legs on our dreams. Determine what you need to do to make your dream come true, then make positive steps in that direction. Do what it takes to make things happen – even if it means you have to pass up a sunny day.
Join in the Fray: What are you dreaming of?
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Ladies and Gentlemen, I am disturbed.
Profoundly.
Yesterday one of the interracial Facebook pages issued a warning to its fans. They sounded the alarm about a Facebook Romeo who evidently had been making the rounds of IRR and Swirl pages and cozying up to Black women. His motive?
To ask them for money.
Seems this Facebook Romeo had hit up several of the women on the page. The women contacted the Admin, who in turn posted a warning – complete with a photo.
People, I just blew a gasket.
A guy chats you up on Facebook, and somehow feels comfortable enough to ask you for money???
o_O
Swirlers, we have a problem.
Oh, I hear your gasps and cluck-clucks of judgment. Who does that? you ask. You wonder, How does this happen? as you clutch your pearls in dismay.
Whelp, I’m glad you asked, because I’m more than happy to let you in on Mr. Facebook Romeo’s secrets.
A wise old man once said, “It’s one thing to get hit by a bat, but giving someone a bat to hit you with is an entirely different matter.”
Ladies, whether online or in person, thirstiness and desperation will read through loud and clear. Facebook Romeos troll interracial pages and groups, looking for the five things I just listed. Women who engage in those behaviors make it easy for Romeos to engage in predatory activity with little to no effort.
Don’t give a Facebook Romeo a bat to hit you over the head with.
Think I’m being an alarmist? Check out these clips from recent episodes of the Dr. Phil Show on the subject of “Catfish” and “Online Love Scammers.”
How do you protect yourself from a Facebook Romeo? The same way you keep bugs and pesky insects away. In other words, you use repellent.
The average Facebook Romeo isn’t too interested in a woman who exudes confidence and knows her self-worth. Even so, don’t believe for a second that possessing these qualities will make you exempt. Often times these attributes will just place you in an arena to be approached by a “better quality” Romeo, one who will be a lot less obvious about what he’s after. The best way to protect yourself – and we can’t say it enough – is to Vet, vet, and vet again.
The best way to protect yourself – and we can’t say it enough – is to Vet, vet, and vet again. The best way to protect yourself – and we can’t say it enough – is to Vet, vet, and vet again. The best way to protect yourself – and we can’t say it enough – is to Vet, vet, and vet again. The best way to protect yourself – and we can’t say it enough – is to Vet, vet, and vet again. The best way to protect yourself – and we can’t say it enough – is to Vet, vet, and vet again.
I’m just saying.
(This is also a good time to re-read our post entitled Date Smarter, Not Harder).
Join in the Fray: What does your online persona say about you? Are you a prime target for a Facebook Romeo?
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(I know – you’re right behind that preposition!)
If you recognize this little guy, I believe you have some familiarity with Twitter.
We’re on most of the social media outlets, so feel free to reach out and touch us.
Here’s where you can find me (Michelle Matthews-Calloway):
Holla at ya Girl – I’ll holla back!
Join in the Fray: Where you at in the social media world? Sound off . . . . .
I’m blogging every day in the month of January in Blogher’s NaBloPoMo Challenge. Thanks for reading, and feel free to comment!
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